“I can’t live this life no more.”
She takes a deep breath and asks not a question, but a demand, “Then why are you with me?” The words are placed on the table along with the fear of losing him. She doesn’t really want to know the answer, but knows that he never promised anything or lied at any occasion. He’s truthful to a fault, while at the same time always navigating his way through the “good graces” pocket with a simple goal, to stay in the pocket and receive all the good graces she has to offer.
Can you call it game? What is game in the blacksploitation meaning of the word? Let’s try to define boys and girl: Game – A competitive activity or sport in which players contend with each other according to a set of rule.
Okay, but I said “in the blacksploitation meaning of the word.” Game – To alter unspoken rules in order to manipulate someone into letting their guard down and trusting what would naturally not be acceptable behavior. And the survey says!
A more logical question would be what are the rules to which they have been playing? On the planet of Normality cheating is usually against the rules, but what about when you’re the third wheel. This guy’s girlfriend should have cheated. This girl should have known better. The girlfriends “just another priceless pawn,” whom she refuses to feel bad for. Feeling bad would be an admission of wrong doing and therefore warrant an end to this “situation,” which she unfortunately can not really call a “relationship.” Does that make her a bad person, or just selfish?
“How can we grow when we’ve only begun?” It’s really not that complicated in his world. He just feels a different way when with her. One relationship has nothing to do with the other, and therefore creates no explanation for his actions. He cheats simply because he can with the right person. If he’d definitely get caught, or had no positive prospects, he wouldn’t. So without hesitation he replies to her original question of why with, “Three reasons really. Our friendship is important to me. The sex is good. I’m not really trying to give that up. And if my current situation doesn’t work out, I’ll have you.” See, truthful to a fault. As a result her insides feel as if the floor has opened up and swallowed her whole, while at the same time smacking her upside the head with a ton of bricks. Ouch!
Why is she so surprised? She knew he wasn’t leaving her. She knew they started off with a “mutual understanding,” but she too never lied, never mislead and stayed truthful despite vulnerability. But hearing the words still sting. Where’s the miscommunication, the information breakdown? It’s simple really. Men think with their brain/penis, while women use their emotions/heart.
It’s still not enough. “Although I’ve seen your wickedness I still love your effervescence and I know that loving you don’t make no sense, but I guess that’s why I like it.”
After climbing out from under the floor boards she wants to scream at him, but it appears she likes self inflicted pain so much she ask, “Do you have feelings for me?” Confusion occurs out of no where and the call is dropped. The call is dropped! THE CALL IS DROPPED!!! Of course it is. So again I ask you, what is game? Is it a figment of our imagination that we create to explain what is deem unacceptable behavior?
There are two things that separate humans from animals, reason and the right to free will. We have a brain to make conscious decisions and the right to do with that decision what we choice. In the circumstance of relationships, when picking a significant other look for a partner that will strengthen your total package and bring something positive to the table. It’s up to each individual involved to define their own role and accept or not accept the situation they’ve agreed to play an active part in. In other words, if you can’t take the heat get out of the kitchen. You’re in control of your own life. If you give someone an inch don’t let them take a foot. Only you are responsible for you.
If you like it, I love it, but if it’s not good for your, I’ll hate it for you until your strong enough to hate it too. This is where you learn the lesson and move on. Leave the baggage that belongs to it, were you found it only take the lessons with you. In the meantime, the in-between time, apply your newfound knowledge of self and re-evaluate what you truly want and don’t want out of a relationship. There are plenty of other fish in the sea.
“Although you’re an Ice King
Everything that you gave to me
Comes from the destitute and the torn
I can’t live this life no more”
